i hope i can forget her

Thursday,12 th april 2012
21.56 WIB
  I make this letter just to showing my feeling about my love,i saw about her with other guys,i heard it,and i wish i'd never listen to that news,but what happend? i always looking  her daily activities,
  the day before this,it's beautiful for me,but now its not..,i think i have to think twice if she is my real love.,
or maybe i should change my ATTITUDE,or i think i have to leave her,because maybe she can be more happy with other man,but not with ME.
  ''Tuhan,luaskanlah hatiku,lapangkanlah dadaku,agar aku bisa menerima kepahitan ini,''
mungkin aku harus meninggalkannya,..
aku tahu ini sulit,tapi akan kucoba..
mungkin aku harus tetap berdiri disini
meskipun ku tau kau tak pernah datang
 mana yang harus kupilih?!!

My short story ,MY SELF and a girl that i love ''R''

My name is evan,i was born in Brebes,Central java,Indonesia..actually i live on Earth :D.

I have so many experienece with my self..,and you know what ?! when i was 13 years old i've been fall in love with a girl,she is looks charming,beautiful,kind,. But i have a trouble here,because i can't talk to girl easily like other guys in my school.,i don't know why?,why its happens to me?,why should i know that girl?,why should i fall in love with her? till i understand one things that fall in love with her is just out of my control..,everyday im going to school,and everyday too i met her,because im in the same class with her,.however everytime im sitting next to her,i always look for her,and when im in a room full of people the first people that i search is her..,the most beautiful moment in my life is when a mathematic 2 april 2012,11.38 o'clock ,because at the time her starring me and i dont know i fell very happy when it happens,and YOU KNOW WHAT I PRAY TO GOD? i told Him : ''Ya,Allah bila kau telah menciptakan berbagai macam keindahan di dunia ini,maka dia lah keindahan yang paling ku kagumi,dan kuharap jam tidak pernah bergerak,hari tidak pernah berganti,karena inilah salah satu bagian terindah dalam hidupku''.But im a pesimism , this think that always lies in my head :
1.When i saw her,im afraid if she doesn't like it
2.when i think of her,im afraid if she think other man in her mind